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Homesick Child

Homesick Child

Hi to all the bloggers out there. I have been out of touch since ages or even centuries. I tried logging on my blog account on laptop but realized that I have forgotten the username and password both (my memory is to be blamed for it :p). Luckily, I was able to login automatically through the phone and here I am writing. (Dont even know if people still read blogs :p)

I went through the posts I wrote in 2014 when i first started writing and was laughing on how immature I was but still received so many positive comments. Guess we all grew up. It’s now 2019 and good five years have passed by. I have changed multiple cities, countries and even continents all by my self but I still miss the smell of rainy roads of Karachi where I spent 13 years of my childhood. I also miss the 17 year old me, super excited to go back to Pakistan from Saudi and study at LUMS. I had so many dreams and passion to make my own school for the poor girls and contribute to the economy. I realized its difficult to get done at this time with no finance of my own and then after studying so much for the 4 years, I got admission in Canada for Masters on scholarship.

The 21 year old girl came all the way to Canada alone ( probably the few Pakistani girls who come alone to a foreign land). These 16 months have been alot of struggle and I experienced things I never did in life. After tons and tons of networking and even more crying, I finally got internship at a dream bank and have finished the program. But I do get homesick especially when I go and meet families living together. I try to keep myself positive and have faith in destiny but no matter wherever I go and become, I will miss the golden carefree days of childhood wandering on the streets of Karachi and coming home to a big loving family (to my Da, baba, mama and siblings)…

P.S: the photo was taken in Gerrad Street,Toronto where I could feel the bit of  Pakistani culture,for a while..





Life is so busy that we rarely get time to sit back, reminiscing old joys or simply enjoying an afternoon tea. While in present we tend to think about the future and how to make it better. But how fool a man is, little does he know whats gonna happen with him next. But it would not be justice to put the entire blame on a man as this is how the world expects him to behave. As an Asian student, the society expects him to study hard and get the best grades he can. The teachers, parents and even the distant relatives want him to study and study. But what if he has some other talent say painting, No one really cares about it.
India has the highest number of suicides committed by students because of extreme competition and pressure to study. And when asked by elders why do they want their child to put in so much of the efforts, their answer is that it will lead to a better future. My question to all those parents is that what if the child develops an incurable disease because of extreme stress? So, why ruin the present for the future so unpredictable? Every child is different and will reach where he is destined to.
As soon as a man starts working, he sets goals for himself: promotion or to become the CEO in say the next seven years.And for this he might tell lies, do unnecessary buttering or get involved in organisation’s politics. He destroys his current peace of mind for the future peace. I am not saying that every one in the top position does that…No…but many do.
Every day I observe so many people in Coffee shops having a cold coffee or a dessert while busy on phone, arranging meetings or writing reports and I am one of them as well. We are always thinking about the future…completing work before deadline to avoid future penalty, to get greater pay, future recognition etc but do you ever think that this stressful life has an adverse affect on our health!
We need to take out time for ourselves from the busy routine we are expected to follow. We should learn to live in the ‘present’ and find joy in the small things happening around us before it is too late. We need to slow down and take a break to find our purpose of existence rather than doing things because of societal pressure.



My mom tells  that the very first shop that I went after I started walking was Time Medico. Its a famous grocery outlet in Karachi with all sorts of imported chocolates available. My grand dad used to buy me every single chocolate that I used to pick up on the shelves. I have loved eating chocolates since then and I don’t remember a single day when I haven’t eaten at least one chocolate. I feel that eating chocolates provide me with the energy to study better, it helps me focus more and it also cheers up my mood. Research has also found that chocolates can be useful in overcoming the stress and depression in one’s life.

Chocolates (especially the Galaxy dark, my all time favorite) were my only lunch that I used to take with me to school when all my friends used to bring paratha rolls and egg sandwiches. Interestingly, I have eaten chocolates throughout my teenage and I did not get a single pimple, even though my skin is oily. I do not want to generalize it but I think its a misconception that chocolates lead to pimples. Also, during my O and A-Levels, I used to treat myself with chocolates after finishing each chapter which used to provide me with motivation to study further. I would like to give this as a tip to all the students as it was one of the source that helped me get distinctions.

In short, I really love chocolates and I relish trying different variety of them. Below, I have shared some pictures with my favorite chocolate quotes.

P.S I would love to know which chocolate is liked by you guys the post. 😛


to my grandmother.i miss you alot


Its been five years that you have left us all but you are and will always remain in my heart.You were the love of my life.You were only 60 when you left us.Oh my lovely grandma who left us all stranded but as you know life continues to go on.It took me so long to start a new life without you.

I used to sleep with you and you taught me lovely stories.And you were the one I was most close to.I used to tell every thing that happened in my school about my friends and teachers.You always prayed for me to get a good husband because you did not get one.

yes,she had a very difficult life yet she was a strong lady.She got divorced when she was only 22 with two kids.However she brought my dad and my aunt very nicely.My eyes at the moment are blurred because I cannot stop myself from crying.You were a very knid lady.Da I love you a lot please come in my dreams.

You know,grandma my parents are so busy.Mom teaches in school and she comes home tired and dad lives in another city for work.I dont have anyone to share my feelings with.Why does life has to do this..Why?

I wish I can grow up to be as gentle as you are and I really want to open a charity organization from your name so that my future generation can run it and always remember you.

I know that time that has gone can never come back but those were the best days in my life.I used to be so carefree and now I am about to start my new life..that is university .please do pray for me from heaven.

I love you .:(

Dear LIfe


Life is too short to be a bad person.From the experiences I have gained from this seventeen years of my life has made me realise that god has sent us on Earth to be a good person.To be caring,loving,pious and helping others especially poors is what God want from us.This life is a transitory period which is actually a test from God.But alas,the glitters of this evil world diverts a man from this actual path.This is the reason we see crimes taking place in every part of this world.I dont understand why do people commit sins when we know that it is bad.Moreover no one can deny death.Who ever has been born on this mother Earth shall has to taste death.The question arises that if we all believe in death then why dont we prepare for afterlife and become good humanbeings.

Humans are forever running to gather wealth inordet to improve their standards.In doing so,we also lie and decieve others(consiously or subconsciosly) but the time of death is running around us.

We should take out time to thank God for all he has given us.My friends,health is the most precious gift of god but we dont realise till until we actually suffer from the detremental diseases.Just now I was seeing my mother coughing badly and I realised that life is very short and we should try to do good deeds before it is too late.I also realised that parents are gods blessings uopn us and we should never make them disappointed.Dear pals,we should remember death before sleeping which would prevent us from going astray.